Last week I spent some time in self reflection in the Who I Want To Be post. Since then, I have been working to make good decisions in regard to my diet, exercise and blemish control. I’m happy to say that so far I’m doing good! I use LiveStrong.com to track my daily progress and so far that has been very helpful. I’m trying to walk as much as possible, and even did a work out once last week. (Much to the dismay of that pain in my thigh, agravating it to the point that I couldn’t sleep.) I even did a round of the exercises the doctor prescribed, and have employed several all natural face masks and rinses in an effort to brighten my skin.
But, I haven’t been perfect.
I know I need to try and forgive myself for the things I mess up on. I know I shouldn’t crush myself with guilt over the disastrous living room, or the fact that I picked at my face. I also know that its not always that easy.
Then, this week in Chapel at work, the message was about Samson. Now, Chapel is only 10-15minutes long, so there wasn’t a lot of detail. Also, I’m no Biblical scholar. I wish I was (wait- there’s another one of those nagging guilt things!) but I’m just not. But the story as related to me included the fact that Samson broke his Nazarite vow, when his head was shaven. From what I’ve read in Numbers 6:1–21, the symbol of forsaking your Nazarite vow was to shave your head. That much is pretty straight forward. You mess up, you shave your head. Then what?
You hair grows back.
Even though Samson was defeated and imprisoned, all hope was not lost. The bible specifically mentions that Samson’s hair grew back in Judges 16:22. Then, he was able to regain his strength with the pressense of the Lord and comit his final acts. In that message, something stuck with me.
Whenever we begin to do something, we feel a sense of progress. 7 days straight without over eating. 2 weeks of not smoking. 10 pounds lost. In turn, when we mess up, we feel a loss of that progress. Its like having your tower of blocks toppled over. You feel like you are left with nothing- and you may be. But you can start again.
So, I’m going to make a point this week to feel like Samson. When I mess up, not only will I focus on forgiving myself, but I’m going to focus on this mantra: shave your head and start again. I might feel my progress was lost, but I can regain it.
If you want to download my super awesome printable saying to remind you of this lesson, you may do so here: Head Start